HungerFF Presents: Brolapse

Some episodes are fun. Some are loud. And then there are the rare ones that feel like a real conversation you’re lucky to witness.

In Episode 70, Rocco Steele joins me for an honest, reflective talk about stepping away from the industry and what it means to finally let a public persona become a smaller and smaller piece of your life. Rocco shares how a serious health scare shifted his priorities, how his husband showed up for him in a way that reaffirmed everything, and why he’s been planning a gradual exit for the last couple of years. Not out of bitterness, not out of shame, but out of clarity.

We get into the unseen work behind being “on” all the time. The toll of appearances. The burnout. The pressure to keep up with an online machine that never stops. Rocco breaks down the boundaries that mattered most to him, especially protecting his sobriety and his marriage, and what it feels like to move through the world when people recognize you in places where you’re just trying to be a person.

This conversation also goes deeper into chosen family, grief, and aging as a gay man. Rocco talks about coming out in the 80s, the losses that shaped his generation, and how getting older has changed what he values, what he gives his energy to, and what “grace” looks like in real life. We talk about the mental health cost of growing up online, and the quiet reckoning that hits when you’re trying to untangle your public self from your private self.

And yes, we revisit a full-circle moment from early HungerFF.com history, including why Rocco said yes to filming his first and only fisting scene and what that trust represented at the time.

This one is about legacy, integrity, and what happens when you stop performing and start living.

New episodes every Friday at 8 PM.

Pre-order Deeper (drops March 1, 2026): https://www.hungerFF.com/deeper

For Episode 69 of Brolapse, Ryan James does something different.

Instead of a guest, this episode offers a first listen to Deeper—his forthcoming memoir—presented here in its unedited author’s version. Ryan reads the full prologue, No Safe Words, followed by the first chapter, Impact, giving listeners an intimate introduction to the book’s voice, structure, and intent before final editorial revisions.

Deeper is not a traditional memoir. It rejects clean arcs and easy redemption in favor of fragments, contradictions, and lived texture. These opening chapters explore survival, addiction, performance, porn, identity, and the cost of turning pain into currency in the age of algorithms—without smoothing edges or offering answers that don’t exist.

Starting in March 2026, the Deeper audiobook will be released chapter by chapter as bonus episodes for Spotify subscribers, before eventually becoming available in full on Audible. If you’ve ever wondered what it sounds like when someone tells their story without a safety net, this is where it begins.

Pre-order the book now at https://HungerFF.com/Deeper
New episodes of Brolapse drop Fridays at 8 PM.

In Episode 68 of Brolapse, Ryan sits down with Brogan for a rare and deeply thoughtful conversation from the perspective of a fisting top—a voice we don’t hear nearly often enough.

Brogan shares his unconventional journey into fisting, from spending years unsuccessfully trying to bottom, to discovering that topping opened an entirely new sexual and psychological path for him. Together, they unpack how intuition, responsibility, communication, and consent shape truly connected sex—especially in practices that are often misunderstood or sensationalized.

The conversation dives into authenticity in content creation, burnout from performing what you think audiences want, and the freedom that comes from returning to sex that feels real. Brogan reflects on why fisting can be one of the most romantic and intimate sex acts he engages in, why cameras can sometimes disrupt that connection, and how presence matters more than performance.

They also explore training versus play, the dangers of inexperience masquerading as confidence, how the fisting scene has evolved post-COVID, and why normalization is powerful—but still requires care, accountability, and listening. From bratty bottoms to aftercare, from live events to private sessions, this episode is about slowing down, checking in, and making sure every moment is a genuine “fuck yes.”

This is a conversation about sex—but also about growth, trust, and what it means to truly take care of someone when you’re the one “driving the car.”

🎙️ HUNGERFF PRESENTS: BROLAPSE
New episodes drop Fridays at 8 PM
Early video access for Spotify subscribers

🎧 LISTEN & SUBSCRIBE:
Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse
Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX
Amazon Music: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse
iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273

📖 DEEPER — Ryan’s memoir is available for preorder now:
https://HungerFF.com/Deeper

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It’s the very first Brolapse Holiday Special 🎁 — and we’re flipping the script.

Inspired by the UK tradition of Boxing Day (a day rooted in role reversal), Dolan Wolf returns—this time as guest host—and puts me in the hot seat 😅🎙️

We get into the real stuff and the fun stuff:
✨ what the holidays mean to us (and what we can’t stand)
🍽️ favorite holiday foods + gift/collectible obsessions
🐶 what a “non-sexual day” actually looks like when your brand is HungerFF
🧠 burnout, work-life balance, and learning to take the “latex vest” off
📘 Deeper — what I learned writing my autobiography, why it was the most cathartic thing I’ve ever done, and the advice I’d give my younger self
👊 plus… classic Brolapse detours into pop culture, guilty pleasures, and unexpected questions that hit hard

If you’ve ever felt like you have to be “on” all the time… this one’s for you. 🖤

📘 Pre-order Deeper: https://HungerFF.com/Deeper

🎧 Listen on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3uJBareUPFci58BJ0NtwtoIOKKuaaBIa
🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)
🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX
📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse
❤️ iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273

🕗 New video episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM! (Early video access for Spotify subscribers!)
🎙️ Audio available at 8 PM across all platforms!

HungerFF reconnects with Alex FFire, a professional fisting top and content creator, for a candid catch-up that covers how Alex first got into fisting, why reassurance and praise are central to his “body worship” style, and what it means to be a rare fisting top in today’s scene.

They dig into identity (poly, non-binary), navigating frail masculinity, and the generational shift around filming sex, shame, and power. Alex also talks FistFest nerves vs. comfort, finding the right kind of play partners, and how he approaches safer sex in 2025 — including PrEP and DoxyPEP — while staying unapologetically slutty.

🕗 New episodes drop Friday nights at 8 PM
🎥 Early video access for Spotify subscribers
🔥 Full video available on HungerFF.com