Lowkey Chaotic

I feel rejected all the time. Not just when the guy i caught feelings for ends things. Also when someone texts me with a dry tone. Or doesn’t reply. And it feels embarrassing to have such big feelings about such small things. So let’s unpack rejection.

As women, we’re constantly monitoring ourselves: on dates, in relationships, and in bed. This episode explores self-surveillance in dating and sex, why transactional intimacy can feel safer than romance, and why even with safe, respectful partners, being fully present can still feel impossible.

A deeply personal and cultural deep dive into why women are taught to believe they love too much and why that was never true. From heartbreak and sensitivity to situationships, ghosting, and emotional detachment, this episode is about reclaiming your heart, trusting your instincts, and remembering that you were never broken. You were just loving in a world that taught men to love too little.

Let’s talk about kinks. About desire and shame. About power, safety, and what it means to feel truly seen by someone. In this episode, I share what I’m learning about wanting, boundaries, trust, and intimacy and why desire is never as random as we think.

Let’s talk about kinks.
About desire and shame. About memory and fantasy. About power, safety, and what it means to feel truly seen by someone. In this episode, I share what I’m learning about wanting, boundaries, trust, and intimacy and why desire is never as random as we think.