Self-doubt surfaces quickly when it's thinly veiled behind borrowed confidence and temperamental self-esteem. Maybe this is your story.
To others, you appear secure, but you feel deeply insufficient inside. You can take the lead, finish the work, maintain a high standard of excellence, and pass as having it together. But you can't outrun the voice that whispers,
If only they knew how little you know, how long you've been in this role, or how lost you feel . . .
If only they knew how un-brave and undeserving you actually are . . .
If only they knew how meticulously you mask the peculiar aspects of your personality . . .
If only they knew the 14-year-old inferiority you never outgrew . . .
I've given ground to similar, self-sabataging thoughts. Spun in circles fueled by incessant overthinking. Second-guessed my way to the safest way forward.
I admit I've dismissed myself before anyone else could. Pulled away from friendships, convinced I'm more burden than blessing. Deflected praise because I disbelieve my own worth.
If you are nodding your head to any of this, there is hope. I wish we could sit down together and remind each other of what's irrevocably true of us. But maybe the reason we don't believe it yet is because we've skipped a step, so let's start there.
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