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The Kid Nobody Picked: An Open Q&A With My Men's Group | Infinite Devotion Episode 148



Every Wednesday morning I get on a call with the men inside Becoming a Dominant Man and answer their questions. This time I flipped it and told them to ask me anything.



They did. What came back was a mix of the light and the heavy, which is how life actually goes. My bike. My sex toys, or lack thereof. What it actually takes to prepare for a nomadic life. How you get a dog to the vet without an address. And the friend who died at 38 a few days before this call, and what that did to my thinking about power exchange, plans, and time.



The heaviest question was the one about what makes me different as a dominant man. The answer is nothing, except that I've been willing to sit down with the seven year old who got picked on all day and let him say what he never got to say. Including the part where I admitted, out loud, that I still half believe nobody likes me.



In this episode:

The bike I ride and why drop bars saved my shoulders

Best and worst part of RV life (same answer for both)

Whether constant novelty kills novelty

My two biggest challenges building a 24/7 power exchange, and why life never gets in the way of it

Ten years of preparation, six months of purging, and the storage unit I now regret

Why community on the road is still the problem I haven't solved

Escapees mail service, Banfield, Discount Tire, and the unglamorous logistics of no fixed address

Abundance as acceptance, Carl Jung, and the two year old running most men's lives

Why a sailboat would be a hundred times harder than an RV

The only honest answer to "where's your favorite place you've been"



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We haven't done one of these in a long time, so we sat down by the fire and answered your questions. Yours, all 6,500 plus of you who follow along on email and social, and Dawn's own following too. This week is every safe for work question you sent in. The sexual ones, the kinky ones, those are coming soon to the paid platforms.



In this episode Dawn gets into:

How she handles getting emotionally dysregulated without asking me to fix her, and why "help me" used to be a crutch

Practicing trust and surrender when the future of your marriage feels genuinely uncertain

The fear of losing this connection, and why what you're actually afraid of is never what you think it is

Why "life gets in the way" is the wrong frame entirely, and what to do instead

Her advice for a younger dom sub couple trying to build something that lasts

How she handles public opinion, criticism, and being recognized in public

Her favorite version of me that almost nobody else ever gets to see

What she's had to unlearn about sex, marriage, and monogamy

What she thinks couples misunderstand most about staying alive to each other over the long haul

Our actual morning and evening routines, no filter

How I show up for her when she's sick

What to do when your partner's preferences don't match your needs, and how to tell the difference between a hard no and a freeze response

The words that actually comfort her when she's struggling, and why there's no perfect sentence a man can say

How she handles it when she feels like I'm dropping the ball, and why that question itself was worth taking apart

And the one we get asked every single time we do one of these: when exactly did she fall from heaven



All the NSFW questions, the sexual ones, the dirty ones, the kinky ones, will be coming in the weeks ahead on Dawn's OnlyFans and inside the Infinite Devotion Community. Keep an eye out.



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CHAPTERS & TIMESTAMPS:



00:00 Fireside Chat Setup

02:09 Ask Dawn Anything Begins

03:08 Self Regulation and Support

06:47 Surrender in Crisis

09:57 Keeping the Dynamic Alive

15:02 Fear of Losing Connection

16:44 Advice for Engaged Couples

19:25 Handling Public Image

22:33 Containment and Desire

28:04 Favorite Side of Andrew

29:51 Unlearning Marriage Myths

31:31 Desire Keeps Love Alive

33:23 Fantasy Versus Real Kinks

33:54 Learning Self Love

36:11 Morning Night Rituals

38:33 Care When Sick

39:53 Needs Wants And No

43:54 Support Without Fixing

49:24 Sub Dom Control Trap

54:52 Closing And Heaven Joke

This week we get into one of the most practical ways I lead in our relationship: taking ownership of our health optimization. It started with a routine idea to get full blood work done and turned into a discovery that Dawn's ferritin was at seven, that I have early markers for Hashimoto's, and that Dawn carries a genetic marker (lipoprotein A) that changes how her body handles certain fats.



Along the way we talk about what it actually means for a man to lead, why individualized data beats throwing darts at a dartboard, and how being cared for this deeply lands for the one receiving it.



A few things we cover:

Why circulating iron and ferritin are not the same thing, and why it matters

What a standard yearly checkup tends to miss

Using your own body's data instead of internet rules about "good" and "bad" foods

How health optimization becomes a place to lead, and to be led

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CHAPTERS & TIMESTAMPS:



00:00 Welcome Back Lakeside

01:11 Leading Through Health

02:50 Ferritin Wake Up Call

07:37 Taking Charge of Care

10:35 Function Health Discovery

14:27 AI Powered Tracking

20:05 Biometrics Environment Data

26:09 Supplement Tweaks Results

27:50 Dawn Perspective Perfectionism

31:45 Cholesterol LpA Genetic Risk

34:18 Actionable Heart Risk Plan

35:14 CT Scan Peace of Mind

36:20 Lowering LDL Ammo

37:29 Rethinking Cooking Fats

38:56 Fear to Self Trust

44:12 Love Leadership Polarity

47:20 Body Signals and Salt

49:03 Different Bodies Same Meals

52:57 Grounding the Fear

56:31 Why He Leads Health

01:00:52 Advocacy and Wrap Up

The first version of us you ever saw was the least authentic version of us you'll ever see. Same goes for you, if you’re doing the work and going inward in your life. Every new thing that surfaces as you shed conditioning is truer than what came before it, which means the person your partner is becoming is more real than the one they used to be.



Dawn joined me for this one, and we recorded outside by a lake in northern Wisconsin. Bugs, birds, wind, squeaky lawn chairs, all of it. Slowest, easiest conversation we've had on here in a long time.



What we get into:

Where we've been since April (Grand Canyon, Page, southern Utah, Moab, Yellowstone, the Black Hills) and why moving weekly burned me out

Why I've been pivoting away from the dominant/submissive framing, and why none of the teaching actually changes

The version of you that lives in everyone else's mind, and what happens when you stop matching it

What it means when someone else's life makes you think "how dare they"

Permission versus acceptance, and why permission can't be used as a tool to pry something out of your partner

Why intimacy and sex are not the same word

One year of adult content: what surprised us, what Dawn found in it, and what I'm still working out for myself



We'll probably do more of these outside.



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CHAPTERS & TIMESTAMPS:



00:00 Lakeside Podcast Setup

01:57 Why We’re Here Today

04:15 Beyond Dom Sub Labels

09:20 RV Pace and Burnout

11:44 Southwest Route Highlights

16:50 Boondocking and Remote Living

18:25 Page Arizona and Lake Powell

21:25 Antelope Canyon Must See

22:39 Moab Parks and Mountain Detour

24:50 Yellowstone Awe and Wildlife

28:56 Dakotas Stops and Badlands Take

32:56 Wisconsin Reset and Fan Meetup

34:53 RV Parking Requests

35:19 Avoiding Big Cities

36:14 Adult Content Backlash

38:58 Authenticity Evolution

48:52 Acceptance in Relationships

52:44 Permission vs Safety

57:37 Porn First Then Depth

01:00:54 First Year Reflections

01:07:48 Romance Books Mirror

01:12:55 Lakeside Wrap Up

01:14:20 Rate and Review



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Most couples who have been together a decade or two are not fighting. They are holding their breath. Somewhere along the way the relationship became a landmine map, a whole terrain of subjects you don't raise, tones you don't use, days you don't bring up money. Nobody signed up for that. It accumulated, one unhandled thing at a time, until the ground you could safely stand on got smaller every year.



This is part two of the abundance versus scarcity conversation, and it takes last week's idea straight into love, sex, and embodiment. Abundance is trust. Here is what that trust does once you put another person in the passenger seat, and why the couple who can find it is the one still laughing, still adventuring, and still having sex ten and twenty years down the road.



If you haven't heard part one yet, it stands on its own, but you'll get more out of this one if you go back to it after.



In this episode:

Why scarcity turns your partner from a person into a supply line to be secured and monitored

Two people, two brakes, one car, and why you both keep blaming the other for the fact that nothing is moving

The landmine map, how it forms without anyone deciding it should, and why it explains a fading sex life better than "we fell out of love" ever could

What abundance actually looks like in a man, why control is always the tell, and why he can lead, hold her, and hear a no without it landing as a verdict on his worth

Why a woman's nervous system reads a man's nervous system first, and why neediness pushes away the very desire it's reaching for

What abundance looks like in a woman, why the guard she built for good reasons is the thing standing between her and the surrender she wants, and why no man can install that trust for her

The shift from facing each other looking for threat to standing side by side looking forward at a life of possibility

Why "whatever happens, we'll handle it" is the most valuable thing a couple can own, and how it dissolves the landmine map instead of tiptoeing around it

How losing the scarcity makes money conversations, sex conversations, and honestly the whole rest of your life easier

An honest word on the in-between, why the first attempts to let go will feel reckless, and why that feeling is information about the size of the fear rather than proof you can't do it



The whole point in one line: love and connection do not have to be hard. Fear, control, and lack are what make them hard. Trust is what makes them easy.



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CHAPTERS & TIMESTAMPS:



00:00 Abundance Recap

05:23 Scarcity Creates Clinging

07:12 Partner As Resource

11:02 Landmine Relationship Map

14:58 Abundance For Men

17:48 Control Versus Presence

24:33 Hearing No With Trust

26:06 Why Women Feel It

30:05 Abundance For Women

39:39 Shared Abundance As Couple

43:28 Truth Play Adventure

49:08 Devotion And No Pressure

50:47 Practice And Grace

53:34 Wrap Up And Review